I know that I haven't written in awhile. I haven't had much to say in the way of positive things so I've kind of remained quiet. I figured I didn't need to have a whole week of entries just with me complaining. :) So, this is what has happened in the past 10 days. We celebrated my mom's birthday. This is one of my favorite pictures from the night. Two of my favorite girls! :)

We also have had TONS of nice weather. The kids and I took advantage of the sunshine and spent a lot of time outside. One day I actually remembered to bring my camera to the park. They had so much fun and I must say we all had a better afternoon after spending sometime in the sun.

This past Saturday Jeff did me a HUGE favor by taking the kids away from the house so I could work on some custom orders I've received (5 order totalling over 28 diapers!!!!). I spent the day inside sewing while they went and enjoy the sunshine and all the animals at the zoo. Here are some pictures from their adventure.

Cooper's tonsils and adnoids surgery was today. I'm hoping to do a seperate post with some pictures and a full explanation of the day's events. :)

One more thing

As if I needed one more thing to stress me out or make me depressed...

Jeff called me at lunch today to tell me that as of tomorrow he will be unemployed. Great - thanks. I'm so stressed about our finances enough as it is, not having an income will help that so much. That and the fact that Kaelyn needs a crown on her tooth (which is scheduled to be done next week), Cooper has blisters on his rear end and needs a prescription filled to fix that issue, and I just found out that I have cholesterol & trygliceride issues that I need to start taking medication for. None of which we now have money to fill, fix, or pay for. And the fact that now that I'll be taking pills for my cholesterol it means I'm officially old.

Just pile it on. Why not.

Whiney

WARNING: Here is the post where I whine a LOT, complain about my children and sound totally and completely ungrateful for my life. So, if you don't want to read about that, then please skip over this post entirely because it will just depress you.

I'm feeling awful this week. It's a combination of things - PMS, the middle of winter blues (which happens to me EVERY year), the lack of money, the amount of debt, the economy, and a two year old who is getting new molars. I want to cry at the drop of a hat. Jeff says one thing to me (like last night asking me to put the silverware in the dishwasher differently - totally not a big deal) and I feel like all I want to do is climb into bed and not get out of it for about a week. I feel like a horrible mom because I don't get down on the floor and do puzzles ALL DAY LONG with my 2 year old. Heck, I haven't even done that for 5 minutes in the last couple weeks. I feel like a horrible mother because my 7 year old is sassy and lazy. I feel like a horrible teacher because we aren't doing school today because we had a horrible trip to the grocery store this morning (imagine screaming toddler for an hour in a public place) and I'm just too emotionally tired to argue with my daughter about doing her phonics work. She did weigh everything at the grocery store - does that count as school?

Anyway, I get in this cyclical thought process. I really feel like I need a vacation. Somewhere sunny, without kids, where I can just veg, read a book, and actually SEE my spouse for longer than 10 minutes without a computer or the phone coming between us. But then I remember how much money we DON'T have and how we will never be able to afford a vacation like this for, oh say, another 10 years. Depressing. Completely depressing.

My kids are driving me to the brink of insanity. Cooper is getting his two year molars and has master the WHINE. Nothing drives me more crazy that whining. Every. Single. Thing. is whining or "no". I love the kid, but MAN is he annoying right now. Geesh.

Kaelyn has been testing the waters to see how far she can push us. Thankfully, she is helpful 95% of the time. But the other 5% feels like I'm dealing with a teenager. I'm so not prepared for those teen years with a girl.

And all this complaining and whining on my own part depress me even more. The amount of guilt I feel for just THINKING these things makes me more depressed. I feel like I'm so ungrateful. Like I just need a swift kick in the pants. I feel like I'm such a horrible person for not feeling all gushy and mushy over my family and my kids right now. I stink.

So, there you have it. My super, duper whiney post. I'm sure you are so glad you read this, huh?

Oh, and by the way... Happy Birthday mom! LOL

ENT update

Monday, February 23rd, 2009

This is the day Cooper is going in to get his tonsils and adnoids (however you spell that) taken out.

We went today to the new ENT. He said, without hesitation and with great certainty that this is exactly what needs to be done. I'm so glad that he is willing to do it. He said that they don't do this surgery on children under the age of 2, but since Cooper is over that and seems to be big enough and healthy enough that he thought it would go fine.

I'm so back and forth on the emotion of it all. I'm SOOOOOOO glad that it will be done and over with now and that he won't have to deal with those horrible things anymore. I can only imagine how uncomfortable he miust be, especially each time he gets sick. On the other hand I'm scared half to death. I'm so scared of him going under anesthesia, of his horrible, hard recovery period and something going wrong. I'm trying to remember that it's all planned out already and it's totally in God's hands, but it's so hard to trust.

So, if you remember us on the 23rd, please send up a prayer for my baby. Thanks.